Not really sure where I go from here
So E has come to terms with the fact that we may never have any more children. I sadly have not. After 5 unsuccessful rounds of clomid, 1 failed IUI and lots of uncertainty I feel like I don't know where to go. I wonder if I am pursuing another child because of all of the babies I have lost. Do I really want another child or do I just think I want another child because those opportunities have been taken away from me. It will be 2 years in July that we have been TTC that third child. My last bfp was in December 2007. I think I have to find a way to let this part of my life go. It makes me sad.
posted by barb at 9:35 PM
1 Comments:
Barb,
I totally know what you mean. I think for a long time I only wanted to have another because I couldn't have one. I am now on BC. It was a hard decision to make, but once I started taking it, it felt like the right thing. I still have dreams about having another baby, but it's not a prominent part of my life anymore. It's nice now to not be stressed about it.
It is so hard. Keep your head up and you will eventually know what the next step will be. I'll be thinking about you.
Love,
Stephanie
1:12 PM
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