1 Month!!

My ray of sunshine. I can't believe it's been a month already. It seems like he was just born yesterday and yet like he's always been here. I love him so much. My sweetest moments come when he is sleeping and I can let my lips fall onto his scalp and just barely kiss him. It's my heaven. Daniel is starting to wake up more. I actually get to look into his eyes now. He was a very sleepy baby those first 2 weeks. The acid reflux is getting worse. I think I'll have to call the doctor tomorrow. Poor thing spewed milk 6 times today. I feel so bad because he is so hungry right after he does this and my breast are empty. Luckily I have been pumping at least one extra bottle's worth so I can replace what he spits up.

Jacob and Daniel together is amazing. However, I do have to keep Jacob from loving his brother too much. He wants to hug and squeeze him. He has also tried to bite him on a few occassions when he has become frustrated with not getting enough of my attention.

I gaze at my son and I can't help but wonder about my lost one. Who would he or she have looked like. Would they have looked like Daniel? Would they have been a boy? Would they have had such a sweet personality? But then if I had my lost one would I have Daniel? It's with both sadness and gratitude that I think about these things. Sad for the one that I will never meet and grateful for the one that I did.