We made it back to birth weight!!

Plus 1 ounce!! Daniel weighs 9lbs 8oz and is doing great. He might have a little acid reflux, but it's a mild case so as long as he keeps a good weight gain going and doesn't spew more than 3 times a day we will not start any medications. I really don't think they are neccessary yet.
Life as a mom of two has been wonderful and not. At first I was so devistated that I hurt Jacob. He was so crushed when we brought the baby home. I truely broke his heart and that in turn broke mine. Here I was a new mom to this beautiful little boy who was just beginning to grow in my heart and yet he was the cause of so much heartache at the same time. My worst night came when I tried to put Jacob to bed. I turned out the light and went to lay down with him and he screamed and cried and crawled out of bed. I could hear him sobbing in the dark and when I turned the light back on he was standing in the corner with his back to me. I was crushed. I sat on the floor and started to sob myself. How could I have destroyed my little guy's world. I grabbed him in my arms and pulled him in tight and the two of us cried. I started to sing our song "Sweet CHild of Mine" and we began to sob even harder. I have never held my child so tight in my arms and I don't think he has ever held on to me so tightly. We could not let go of each other. It was like we needed to reassure each other that our love was still there and that although our world had become chaos that didn't change "us". That was my worst night and my best night. My heart broke so much and healed at the same time.
Now life is good. Jacob refuses to let Daniel wear socks because he wants to hold his feet. And he likes to touch his hands, stroke his face and give him kisses. He helps me change Daniel's diaper and laughed hysterically as Daniel peed on himself. Life with my boys is beautiful and although I do find myself becoming frustrated at times I am so blessed and I hope I never take a moment for granted.