I must be getting old.....Tommy Lee makes me feel sleazy.

I am the one and only person probably watching Rock Star: Supernova, but I am addicted. Sad, I know. While watching this show I have realized something that I had been able to ignore in the past....I am getting old. Somehow the gray hairs, the saggy boobs, the wrinkles, etc. had not set off the alarm system the way Tommy Lee skeeving me out did. See, I am (um was) a huge Motley Crue fan and a huge part of that was Tommy Lee. I have always thought he was a huge turn on (a bit dumb) but still he could have got me between the sheets, but now I just say ugh. Dude, you are OLD and your chasing after underage girls like you just took Viagara and have an everlasting boner. I just have to say ick. I used to love his sick quirky overuse of sexual innuendos. Now not so much.

An "artist's" rendering of GIRLS NIGHT OUT

Hey Shari,

This one is for you. Until I find that cord for my camera this is the best I can do. lol

Jacob's artwork

When I sit down at my computer this is what I see on the screen in black sharpie marker. Where was his father today???

Seriously...work is killing me.

I get a big thick heavy lump in my chest adn I cry on my way home from work. This is not healthy. It's about as healthy as all of the chemicals and fumes I inhale. I need a break, but I just took one to buy a house so there is no vacation in my future. It's a shame because it makes me a mean mommy and a not so nice wife.

Frustrated with work

So I know I have posted in the past about how things are changing at work. It was inevitable. My boss passed away so things were going to have to change. I was nervous, but I knew it was going to happen. But then, I felt like I was lulled into a sense of security. Things didn't change. Not really. I was still working on the same projects, I had the same responsibilities. But now, a foul wind has blown in. And I am devistated. I don't feel like anyone quite undestands why I am so upset. I used to work in what I'll call building A. I was very happy at building A. Then my boss moved over to building B and took most of her employees with her. I was left behind to finish up business before i could go. This took a couple of years. The few who remained moved over to building B when I was pg with Danny, so about 1 1/2 years ago. It took a bit to feel like I fit in again, but eventually it did happen. I mean I knew most of the people and I was able to continue on my projects. Then sadly my boss passed. I was handed over to another PI, but almost left adrift. Things were working fine, but the powers that be in the higher positions had an agenda they were not sharing. Basically they tore us apart. We knew it was coming, but here is where it gets shitty for me. I am being sent to building C with my new boss and his lab. I am the only person from my old lab being sent "away". They say my boss needs me and I'll be good for him, but what about me. Everyone has something familiar to cling too except me. Damnit!!! The others are either being kept together or being sent back to building A (they even said it was like going home). Me, I get a new boss, new building, new co-workers, new projects. Nothing is staying stable for me. I know it will work out, but it is so hard listening to the people I work with now make all sorts of plans and giggle and goof around b/c they are staying together. I'm not even going to have a window in my new place. I will be underground. Sucks. And I am sad to give up my projects. I sort of develope new product lines (the best way I can think of to describe it) and it can take years to get them wher they need to go. I am a heartbeat away from getting them there and now it's all being stripped away. I have always really enjoyed my job, now I'm not so sure.

Sweet Home Sweetie

So Jacob says he loves his home. He actually said "Sweet ome mommy. I lub our new house. It's a nice house mommy" So do you think the boy feels at home?? The kids love it here, I love it here, Ethan loves it here. We are very happy,,but very overwhelmed with all that needs to be done. Maybe it's not need, but it's definately what we want done. Needs would be the flashing that needs to be replaced or cleaning out the gutters. I much better at tackeling the wants. I want the house to be organized and pretty. We made a step in that direction tonight. I bought a new indoor/outdoor carpet for the 3 season room. It's not the carpet I wanted, but it was much cheaper and since we are unsure of how dry the room will stay we decided it was best not to sink a big chunk of money into the carpet. Besides, Danny is still occassionally taking a crap in the corner when he can get his diaper off. Ugh, that kid. As soon as I find the cord for the camera I will post some pics.
The drive is not too bad into work as long as I get my butt out the door by 6:55 at the latest. I can accomplish this if I shower the night before. Not always obtainable when you have two little munchkins vying for your undivided attention.
Danny did get a nasty bug bite that ended up infected so we were at the doctor's on Friday for him. Fortunately he loves the antibiotic so there is no problem with giving him his two doses/day. I really didn't think it would be a problem, the boy eats rocks and styrofoam on a (too) regular basis. Jacob gets a spoonful of whipped cream at medicine time b/c he loves medicine too.
Well my grey hair should be just about covered by now so I must go hop in the shower to rinse before it falls out.