A year ago today...

I know, wow! 2 posts in one night. But it just dawned on me that today is my one year anniversary for being home. A year ago today, Ethan, Jacob and I were able to move home after a fire that forced us to live elsewhere for 4 months. We had lived with my in-laws. As grateful as I was that we had them, I was so ecstatic that we were finally home. This was also the night that we "celebrated" and ended up conceiving our little angel. At the time I was so overwraught witht he thought of a new pregnancy. Jacob was only 6 months old and we had just moved back into our home. If I knew then what I know now I would have cherished evry moment that I carried our little angel. Baby B. did a miraculous thing for me. Although I was only able to be a mother to B. for a short period of time I learned what a gift s/he would have been. How much to cherish every moment. Never did I think I would lose him or her. And never did I think it would take so long with so much heartache to create a new life. And when I found out I was pg this time I knew I was this babe's mother from the moment it implanted. I was going to love and mother it for as long as I had the oppurtunity. And I have been blessed so far to have 18 weeks to love this little life. I thank you Baby B. for opening my eyes and my heart.