I Froze.

For the first time ever with my kids I froze. I've always acted without thinking and am surprised at how fast I jump into action, but today..I froze. I came home early b/c I have a horrible sinus infection. FIL was here, but no MIL and no kids. FIL said no one was here when he got here so we assumed MIL took the kids to the park. That's not the point though. The point is FIL was concerned there was no parking in front of the house and we were keeping our eye out for them. I noticed them pull up across the street so FIL said he would go out and help. Well I went too. FIL started yelling for MIL to stay put and he would come across to help. Meanwhile MIL has Danny on her hip and Jacob at her side. Well MIL got distracted by FIL calling to her and Jacob must have seen "papa" so he started walking into teh road. This is a very busy road. We all started screaming for her to grab Jacob and then FIL ran into teh street and grabbed him. I just stood there with lead in my feet. Everyone is OK and as soon as FIL adn MIL left I had to go throw up. My heart stopped today. Poor Jacob was all upset b/c he doesn't understand why everyone was screaming at him. He's napping now.
Recently there has been some debates on the boards between Child free by choice women and mommies over the name "mombies". I had been putting a post together regarding what makes me what I am. My thought was that no matter what else I may be (career woman, wife, daughter,sister, etc.) one part of me always takes precedence...mom. It was asked how moms could say 'my kids are my whole life'. Well I'll tell you, I thought my life was going to end today because without my kids the rest just doesn't matter.